"And we hope against all logic and experience..."


before what you were giving me tasted like wine,
so wonderful and intoxicating
now i realize its poison
...but I can't stop drinking it
I don't even want to
you're killing me and all I have to do to live is let go
but I keep grabbing on and trying to not see the bitter truth
everyone's telling me to run the other way
but I make excuses for you and disguise the poison as wine
I wish I could just give up on you and be hopeless and get over it
but I still imagine you the way I want things to be...
me intoxicated with wine and not poison and you...
actually wanting me too


"This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters but we never stood a chance and I'm not sure if it matters..."

What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has lead you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do ...

But I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize

That I don't know how
To let you go
I don't know how
To let you go

A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go