I was gonna change this year, make this the metamorphasis year where I actually started having fun in high school because I'm never gonna have this again and for some people their fondest memories come from when they were in high school. Not like I haven't been having ANY fun but last year was almost better which is surprising to say because I didn't have a very great school year, well at least in the fall/winter last year. Idk maybe I'm just remembering last year differently than it actually was, imagining myself happier than i really was. I thought last year would be the worst, at least socially of high school because I lost some friends, but then I found some others who are really awesome. But idk I guess I was being unrealistic in thinking that I could totally just transform myself over the summer. And it is only like a month into the school year but I'm totally not enjoying much of anything having to do with school right now. I don't see like anyone during the day-lunch, classes, the bus, anything. It really sucks and then I'm like the only one not in orchestra/squeeze math so it just kinda isolates me more. And like I said in another entryyour freinds having boyfriends really complicates things sometimes. But bah that's the end of my complaining for now. There's still time. So love u all, ha even tho no one reads this. u should comment if u do.

~Madelyn