I hate this, I hate feeling selfish and little-kiddish and jealous. I hate having to plan everything. I hate feeling like I'm a worse person than everyone, like I'm so bad for complaining or getting mad at people. I hate how I don't tell people what I want (at least in some respects) I hate when ur best friends have boyfriends because it tears everyone apart. I hate losing touch with people for no reason. I hate feeling like I'm not in control of my own life. I hate feeling so burdened with school and gpa's and tests and getting into a "good" college and knowing what you want to do for the rest of your life. I hate feeling so insecure. I hate crying for reasons unknown to everyone except my subconcious. I hate people questioning you all the time, I hate doubts, regrets, insecurities, jealousy. I hate that while I'm writing this I think of people reading it and thinking I complain too much.